1st time help

[love2stroke]

I'm a 20 year old guy. I'm a virgin. and I'm also VERY VERY bi-curious. I love looking at a nice cock on the internet, and have no problem with gay porn. I've experimented and really enjoy anal (on myself). I always find myself looking at a nice big dick and thinking about sucking it or letting the guy fuck me.
Well, there's this guy I've been talking to who wants to hook up and suck each other and fuck me. The problem is, I also find an excuse. He knows I'm really nervous about it and whatnot. It seems like I always make the plans when I'm worked up and horny, and then, once the horniness subsides, I lose interest.

So I need some help with encouragement and advice. I was also hoping for some advice on giving a blowjob. I mean, I know what I think I'd like, but again...I'm a virgin so..yeah.