First mutual J/O tomorrow!

[whackamole]

I had a similar experience. Had been fantasizing a long time about a mutual stroke. No interest in guys, just the cock. I did want to stroke it though. Finally got up the nerve, posted on craigslist, had several chats with the other guy and we met up while I was out of town on biz. I was pretty nervous but figured I had to try it as I had been thinking about it for so long. We watched porn a bit, then stripped down on separate beds, finally he came over, stroked me a while, I returned the favor, even tried oral for a bit. Eventually I stroked him off, then he returned the favor. We toweled off, shook hands and parted ways.

The anticipation of the fantasy was actually better than the act. I still like to watch cocks and show mine off, so I'll probably do it again. This time I'll be more prepared, less nervous and maybe enjoy the moment more. But I'm glad I did it if for no other reason than to stop having it consume my fantasy thoughts constantly.