My memory is terrible so I don't know if I used to play with myself before then, but I remember my first orgasm vividly. I was 13 and lay on my bed, watching a show with some softcore sex and nudity in it (Eurotrash, for those in the UK familiar with it
) and had pulled my pants down a little and was massaging my dick and balls. I'd experienced hardons before as far back as I can remember so it was no new thing for it to happen then, but I panicked when the now familiar feeling occurred and I shot cum all over my bed. I remember hurrying downstairs to get some tissue to bring to clean it up, and being scared and feeling disgusted with myself, but it wasn't more than a few days later when I tried it again, each time feeling dirty and wrong, but not enough to make me stop doing it again