This is going to sound so stupid but here goes - my now ex bf dumped me a year and a half ago, largely because i was way way way too jealous and possessive, not to mention envious of prettier girls. He had a thing for your typical blonde, skinny barbie doll (plus he loved strippers
) and i just couldn't compete. I still love him and want to get back together with him.
On the flipside though, I found myself getting really turned on by these sorts of girls as much as i hate to admit it. Now, when I want to get off really hard I'll spread my legs and rub myself with my vibrator for ages, imaginging him sitting in a strip joint and getting a hard on while some hot blonde stunner gives him a lap dance. I imagine myself standing off to the side, slipping a finger down my pants and rubbing myself while i watch. Or i just imagine him 'cheating' with some hot slut, doing all sorts of kinky nasty things, telling her how much hotter she is than me. I always cum so hard when I think of him with other girls.
I dont know, i guess this sounds pretty perverted. But I can't help it, the jealousy thing is a massive turn on for me.