by Busch » Thu Apr 24, 2008 8:14 pm
Well its Thursday afternoon, and I did it. The drive was nerve racking. I had second thoughts, but I knew I had to do it or else I would always wonder. So I show up and knock on the door. The guy comes to the door and lets me in. He's a pretty normal looking dude but actually seeing the dude I am going to do this with is a little weird. It was akward for a few minutes. We hooked the computer up to youporn and just watched for a little while. Eventually I was the first one to pull out my dick and start stroking. Surprisingly, I only had a semi. I mean it was exciting, but not near what I thought it would be. We laid on the bed and stoked for a while. Every once in a while we'd glance at eachother, but not too often. We must have been stroking for at least 20 minutes. Speeding up, slowing down, speeding up. I was ready to cum but its like neither one of us wanted to cum first. Eventually he turned to me and asked if we should finish eachother off. I wasn't really sure, but I agreed. So we grabbed eachother and stroked. I was already close to cumming so I came within 2 minutes of this. He came about 30 seconds later. We wiped off with a towel, and within 5 minutes I was on my way. Don't even know his name.
Anyway, my thoughts. I honestly think this was a one time thing for me. The mutual jacking was ok. I'd rate it only a small step above jacking alone. In all honestly I would say I got maybe 85% hard at the most. Jerking eachother was definately not my thing. Something I just won't do again. Even at the edge of cumming, I felt almost sick jerking another guy. Believe me, I have an open mind, but it honestly wasn't for me. After we were done, all I could think about was my fiance and I finally realized how much she turns me on. It's not something that is going to haunt me forever though. If anything, I am more secure in my sexuality than I have ever been. My only thoughts about doing anything with another guy are gone.
Sorry if anyone reading was disappointied with the ending, but you can't help how you feel about things. It's crazy how you think you have a fantasy, but when you actually experience it, its nothing like you thought it would be. I equate it to the incest stories on the erotic literature websites. Sure its exciting to read about because it is so taboo, but imagine actually having sex with someone in your own family. NOT the same thing, and I think that's what I experienced here. All I know is next time I have sex with my fiance I will be clear headed and give her the orgasm(s) of her life!