young boy's experience

[alphonse]

I was 15 when a man in his early forties seduced me. We were showering in a public bath. Initially we were both in our swim trunks. But then he took his off pretending to wash his private parts and for the first time I saw a naked guy. I became very, very excited. And, I do not know why, but I felt I should take my swim shorts off as well. Doing this I got an erection which he noticed. We were looking at each other and he started to play with his dick. Not vigorously, but just to show me something. My knees became week. He put his trunks on again and gave me a sign to follow him. I covered up, too, and followed him into his cabin. To be in this small room, taking our clothes off again, looking at each other and touching, was such an intimate situation that I must have had a heart beat of 300. He looked and felt wonderful. He was mildly tanned, slim, of medium build and had a nicely shaped penis. I was eager to please and my only worry was to make it the best possible way. I had never masturbated someone else, let alone a grown up man, and was terribly insecure. When he came, I was proud of my achievement and full of admiration for his come which had a won derful smell and was much richer and thicker than mine had ever been. He offered to return the favour but I declined.

Afterwards I was in a terrible conflict. On the one hand I had very much enjoyed what we did, on the other hand homosexuality was a massive taboo. It was then still a criminal offence and, young as I was, I had fully absorbed the notion that anything gay was bad, unnatural. I felt this conflict for a very long time before I mustered the courage to acknowledge my bi-sexuality.

When I hear of other people who in their early years had been sexually 'molested' the memory of my experience comes back. Rather than having been molested I feel that someone gently opended a door for me. Being bi-sexual is not always easy. But I feel richer for it.

I suppose others are here with similar stories. However, they may feel totally different about it. I would very much like to hear about it.

[str8mate]

while it was probably inappropriate for a 40 year old man to be fooling around with a 15 year old guy, it certainly sounds like you were consenting to the experience...and as you say, he opened a door for you to be comfortable with your sexuality, which is always a good thing!

you should never have to feel bad or unnatural about bisexual or gay thoughts, since this definitely sounds like it was an exciting/hot first experience to explore things with a guy

cheers

[happystroker]

I understand your feelings. I had sex with a married couple in their forties (and many of their swinging friends) beginning at age sixteen. In one way, I was much too young for all that, and at the same time I loved it and certainly was a totally willing participant.

One night, after several weeks of hints, and when the wife had gone to bed, we began masturbating, and then he sucked me. The next time we were together, I sucked him also, and later he arranged for me to play with others of his friends. At that age, I was very much in their power, and controlled by my desires, so you could say that I was used. I've asked, like you, very seriously if I was "molested." It was very intense, and in some ways not an 'equal' relationship; it also opened me up early and clearly to who I am.

I was grateful to have been introduced to sex with men in a 'natural' context, free of labels of gay or straight, and with the 'authority' and 'permission' of the older people. I had played with boys before puberty, and then shunned the idea in the homophobia of early teen life, even though I felt it natural. Being 'allowed' to have male sex by older people in authority, I think, removed much of the stigma for me of my desires.

When I was older and experienced more equal relationships, with others my own age, it was very euphoric--I was no longer the youngest of the young! At the same time, I've also sought, and enjoyed, more kinky sexual relationships, often based on power, and during college, especially, I found older male admirers to be very appealing.

Another thing I lost, along with my virginity, was possessiveness...and my girlfriends have enjoyed my special lack of jealousy and, sometimes, my excitement at their sexual experimentation.

[gyllir]

Thanks for sharing.

Do what you feel comfortable with.

[Cocknhand77]

I was 11 and barely hitting puberty. Like most peubescent boys I was very horny and curious. I had an older guy friend no one knew about. He was 19yo. I had known him awhile. He must have counted on my curiousity and inexperience. Thinking back it had to be a plan he put in motion. He talked about girls with me often. Probably to test my interest and I was interested. It took place during summer break. We were home all day without supervision, thankfully.lol He called in the morning around 9am to invite me to his empty house. He told me to walk-in and lock the door behind me. I found him in his room in his underwear. We talked about girls for awhile. It was real hot and he convinced me to strip down to my underwear too. He brought a magazine out. I acted shy at first and he handed it to me. I nervously took it for my first glimpse of naked women. I bet my eyes bulged as he watched my reaction. I was horny and carefully looked over each picture. Fromy reactions and obvious excitement, he had to know he had me. I was hooked. My small penis was standing erect. I was still small and hairless at this time. He said if this was my first mag then how about a movie. I was giddy with joy when he told me he had movies. Home alone we got to have the volume up. During the first scene he said I could get naked if I wanted too. Without a word I stood and removed my underwear. I didnt try to hide and he liked my baldness. I watched as foreplay became sex, I was glued to the screen. I asked if he was going to get naked and he promptly did. He sat beside me and I glanced over at his naked genitals. I stared and he took notice of it. I told him he was hairy like the guy in the video. I would tell him what differences I noticed between us. The first was the full bush of pubic hair. I asked if it was like regular hair and he told me to touch it and see. I ran my fingers through it feeling its coarseness. A little after he began to get hard. I watched it grow fully erect telling him it was big. I watched as the man reached a spraying orgasm. I was fascinated but kept it to myself. After a couple hours he noticed and I noticed I had been hard the whole time. I sat up indian style with him laid out next me. He had me layback which made my little dick stand straight up at the ceiling.lol I began to ask about the guys cumming and about it in general. I eventually asked if he could cum like them explaining I couldnt. He said he could and I looked at his cock. We continued talking about all things sex. I was curious and bold enough to ask to see him cum. I wanted to see it in real life. He said ok but said I had to help him. I agreed and asked how. He skipped to a scene of a guy getting a handjob to orgasm. We watched and he said to do what I saw. I wrapped my hand on it feeling its stiffness. I ran up an down taking time to explore his dickhead. I did this awhile and felt him twitching as a I did. He told me go faster and not to slowdown or stop. He began to gasp and I felt him stiffen more as he began to ejaculate. I sat mesmerized seeing it all upclose a few inches away. I let it cover my hand making a loud noise squishing as I stroked his dick. I played with it as well as his cock for the rest of the day, nude. It was the lovely start of a long relationship.