For nearly a year now, I have been jerking it about 5 or 6 times a day. I am obsessed with an internet model that I found, I can't stop thinking about her and looking at her. I think about her every second of the day and literally have not jerked off to ANYONE ELSE in nearly a year! I can't stop, I can't bring myself to look at another woman. I am married and completely ignore my wife, all I think about is this other girl. She is the most incredible thing I have ever seen! I have jerked so much that I have been raw and bleeding! It really doesn't even feel good anymore!
I'm sorry about posting such a sad thread!:( I feel like I am so fucked up! I feel like there is something wrong with me! Before I found this model, I was a maybe once a day or every other day jerker. I was nothing like I am now! I don't know how to stop. I don't know where to turn! Maybe telling this here will help me feel better, I just need to tell someone!
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Everything I do revolves around this girl. I have her pictures and video's on my phone, I have a PDA loaded with more, I have probably every picture of her that exists on the internet on my laptop. I have all her video's burned to DVD's where I can watch them on my big screen TV's. I even have a framed poster of her in my basement! I have jerked off to her at work. I have jerked off to her while driving. If I have guests at the house, sometimes I will excuse myself to the bathroom and jerkoff while looking at a 2" screen on my phone. I am completely infatuated! I don't know how to stop this!:cry: It's fucking ridiculous!!! This has just been going on too long! I can't go to a psychiatrist for this because my wife will find out about my secret obsession!
