by porn-addict » Wed Feb 17, 2010 8:36 pm
I’ve only ever watched myself masturbating once. I was at the work Christmas party in the city and had booked into the hotel for the night. At the end of the night’s festivities, I was drunk, on my own and horny as hell.
I always wank over porn, but there was nothing in the hotel room or on the TV even remotely arousing. However, there was a full length mirror. So my dirty mind got to work. I stripped naked and started to fondle and play with myself in front of it. I stood at first, pumping away to see what that looked like, then I sat on the carpet to get more comfortable.
I was very aroused, but also ashamed with myself, thinking “What the fuck are you doing?”. Feeling like a pathetic dirty pervert just turned me on more, so I really let go and put on an uninhibited performance for myself. I gently caressed my throbbing cock, I pumped it, I stimulated the tip, I rubbed it against my thighs, my ankles, the soles of my feet, my forearm…any part of my body I could reach, really getting turned on…….and then gave my hand a real good fucking. I got fairly aggressive with myself, clenching my teeth and urging myself on…..”Come on you dirty pathetic masturbator, wank yourself stupid…” etc. I did quite a bit of ecstatic moaning aswell.
I fantasised that a maid might walk in at any moment and catch me wanking furiously. I was unbelievably turned on at the idea of being caught masturbating…not only that, but being caught masturbating naked AND in front of a mirror. I couldn’t imagine a more embarrassing situation, which again added to the masturbatory ecstasy.
I was on my knees for the orgasm, watching myself as if I was watching a porn video. Because it was such a strange situation for me, I had one hell of an orgasm. Luckily I had toilet paper spread all over the floor because my spunk shot everywhere as I recklessly pumped like crazy, rubbing the cum all over my cock and groin, squeezing out every last drop…..just to feel extra depraved and give myself a real eyeful.
I haven’t done anything like it since, as I always have porn to ‘hand’, but I look back on the experience with a mixture of disgust and self-loathing, as well as guilty pleasure at the memory of letting go so much and doing something that seemed so off the wall.
Discovering this forum and reading other peoples solo experiences has shown me that it wasn’t really that big of a deal. Some of you boys and girls get up to stuff I never even dreamed of…and I say that with the greatest admiration! To a simple “jerk off to porn” guy, my mirror experience was quite an event though.